7 days to go..

hmm.. 7 hari lagi.. nk raya. unlike 2-3 years back, im now so excited of the coming of hari raya ths year. xtau nape tp perasaan menjelang syawal ni sebenarnye sukar dijelaskn, tp ada rasa ;D penantian syawal ni jauh sekali berbeza ng perasaan mase kecik dulu.. klu dlu objekif utama was for sure the collection but now, part tu dh xyah pk sbb now kite plak yg nk sediakan bajet for budak2.. itu masih belum menjadi masalah... alhamdulillah... ntahla, i bet grownups mmg akn rase camni kot. skang ni, adat berkumpul beramai-ramai, ziarah menziarahi menjadi keutamaan pd aku.

baju raya untuk diri sendiri pn xamik kisah. smpi skrg pn xrisau ade ke tak baju baru tuk raya thn ni. n tak kesah pn nk pakai baju tahun lepas. tp ade gak plan ng makcu nk tgk kat first lady utk cari sepasang dua.. tu pn klu ade stok lg.

hmm.. cant wait for the day to come.. hehe citer psl menjelang syawal ni.. it brings back memories hehe.. citer hantu bawah pokok kelapa? hahaha ;D ade mase nnt insyaallah tertulis gak kisah 3thn lepas tu kat blog ni nnt..

@flaming

buka puasa kat flaming steamboat. can be considered as annual activity for budak2 IT kustem ambilan 2002. was fun wlaupun xramai yg dapat attend. and the family has gotten bigger and bigger everytime. best giler to have a chance to see how the family grows. and getting to know the stories of the singles heheh quite menarik, applies to myself as well. mine is not so menarik la, consider complicated... and the blame should be put on me ;) hehe. yg join hari tu - pian (mr. organizer), joke (the co-pilot), zen, aku, yante, niza, yus and the wife (who is 5months pregnant), nisa with husband&kid, kak noreen with husband&kid, kak wanie with husband&kid. hmm i think that was all. hopefully to see more newborns next year. mesti lagi meriah. as for me.. ;D heheh

crushes

crushes in life.. commenting on this subject has given me painful sweet memories ;) 3crushes in 25 years. 2 during hischool, 1 just few months back (with a hischool boy). crushes come and go and i was, am very sure bout that. i believe so and that is the reason why i can define myself as a strong at heart. the moment it happened was very painful that u feel like something is killing u inside. i was not gonna let me soul die for keeping it to myself and everytime i managed to let it out to the person. but have to clear on 1 thing.. a crush is definitely not yet a love. just an extreme feeling of liking someone.

the 1st crush did not hurt me very badly. i was 15. it was 1st a crush, and purposely wanted to make someone jealous i befriended with the 1st crush. mission failed but another sweet thing accidentally happened ;) we went out dating each other for less than 1 year. sharing what a damn sweet moment together. the relationship did not last long that i broke the relationship when he was in preparation to go study overseas - UK. i thought that would be the best for us.

2nd crush. [be continued..]

emosi tak baik dalam bulan yang baik

hmm...biasenye kalu cerita pasal emosi xbaik ni mesti bersangkut hal hubungan profesional aku dgn org bawahan bos, merangkap orang atasan aku. muak. rase cam nak muntah pn ade skang ni.

hampir 3 tahun kat sini, hampir 2 tahun duduk di posisi aku skarang.. alhamdulillah aku survived dan membuatkan aku semakin berakal untuk handle org cam die ni. hasilnye skarang aku dh jadi sedikit kurang ajar *sigh. jauh dari niat tp itu yang aku patut buat memandangkan sahabat2 di bawahku perlu sedikit pembelaan. manusia bukan robot/mesin. ayat itu yg aku katakan pd die ketika perang mulut antara aku ng die 2 hari lepas. mampu jugak ayat tu buat die beralih tajuk. kemampuan boleh diuji tp perlu sedikit rasa kemanusiaan dan pertimbangan yang wajar. ape yg penting, aku dapat buat die faham bahawa aku seorang yg degil dan prinsip kerja aku di sini sesuatu yg die perlu terima...

Aku berasa puas tp jauh disudut hati rasa bersalah pn ade. selalu aku doakan supaya diberikan hati, minda yang tenang. jauhkan aku dr sifat2 mazmumah. tp bila difikir balik berhadapan dengan orang semacam ni aku perlu berfikiran sedikit *keras. dan alhamdulillah ia sedikit membantu. cuma aku harap xperlu berhadapan dengan seorang lagi yang semacam dia...

- i will not break ;)

sahabat baik

Hanya seminit diperlukan untuk mendapat sahabat baik, sejam untuk menghargainya, sehari untuk menyayanginya, tapi sepanjang hidup untuk melupakannya Perkara yang anda tak perasan atau saja tak perasaan........

Hanya seminit diperlukan untuk mendapat sahabat baik, sejam untuk menghargainya, sehari untuk menyayanginya, tapi sepanjang hidup untuk melupakannya.

Ini adalah pesanan pendek untuk menyatakan yang anda sentiasa mengingatinya. Ambillah sedikit masa dan anda sudah pasti memberi keceriaan kepada seseorang atau mungkin mengubah hidup mereka kepada yang lebih baik.

Bila Allah cepat makbulkan Doamu, Maka DIA Menyayangimu, Bila DIA Lambat Makbulkan doamu, Maka DIA Ingin Mengujimu, Bila DIA Tidak Makbulkan Doamu, Maka Dia Merancang Sesuatu Yang lebih Baik Untukmu.

Oleh itu, Sentiasalah Bersangka Baik Pada ALLAH Dalam Apa Jua Keadaan Pun...Kerana Kasih sayang ALLAH Itu Mendahului KemurkaanNya..."

a forwarded email from a WAYN friend..

2 ways to know that you like someone ;)

TWELVE:
You have been talking to them late at night and even when u go to bed, you still think of them.
ELEVEN:
You walk really slow when you're with them.
TEN:
You feel shy whenever they're around.
NINE:
You smile when you hear their voice.
EIGHT:
When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, you just see him/her.
SIX:
They're all you think about.
FIVE:
You realize you're always smiling when you're looking at them.
FOUR:
You would do anything for them, just to see them.
THREE:
While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole time.
TWO:
You were so busy thinking about that person, you didnt notice number seven was missing
ONE:
You just scrolled up to check & are now silently laughing at yourself.

hehe..kene pulak batang hidung, but i believe this feeling won't stay..i will be better very soon..just wait for him to fly off ;)

..just another fight

had a fight with the manager this morning.. i have always hated to be put in the situation but it gave me satisfaction everytime.. and from him that i learnt to start arguing.. not for negative purposes, for sure.. it was just that i came to realise that if we keep being in silence and just accept others opinion without giving feedbacks would only harm ourselves in time..

to be in this position was not my willing at all. kind of dramatic that i was given no choice to be here. the boss said 'irnie, you got no choice.. u take it or.. u just take it'. haha.. anyhow, i thank you for that boss. you have given me so much opportunities to improve myself eversince..

welcoming myself ;p

hmm.. the desire to starting a blog has been increasing more and more these few days.. selama ni dok blog reading jek. only now that i dare to give myself a try. so i hope this is gonna be a beginning to more exciting chapters of my life.. this is just the beginning, angah!

my life has been acting up-side-down in these few months.. after all that happened, im not sure whether Allah is giving me a sign or the life is just being playful to me.. and this song is just an important factor (for me to ponder over things..) i cried at the first time i got to really listen to the lyrics.. touches me deep inside

Kiss and Say Goodbye
The Manhattans

[Spoken]This has got to be the saddest day of my life
I called you here today for a bit of bad news
I won't be able to see you anymore
Because of my obligations, and the ties that you have
We've been meeting here everyday
And since this is our last day together
I wanna hold you just one more time
When you turn and walk away, don't look back
I wanna remember you just like this
Let's just kiss and say goodbye

[Song]
I had to meet you here today
There's just so many things to say
Please don't stop me 'til I'm through
This is something I hate to do
We've been meeting here so long
I guess what we done, oh was wrong
Please darlin', don't you cry
Let's just kiss and say goodbye (Goodbye)

Many months have passed us by
(I'm gonna miss you)
I'm gonna miss you, I can't lie
(I'm gonna miss you)
I've got ties, and so do you
I just think this is the thing to do
It's gonna hurt me, I can't lie
Maybe you'll meet, you'll meet another guy
Understand me, won't you try, try, try, try, try, try, try
Let's just kiss and say goodbye (Goodbye)

(I'm gonna miss you)
I'm gonna miss you, I can't lie
(I'm gonna miss you)
Understand me, won't you try
(I'm gonna miss you)
It's gonna hurt me, I can't lie
(I'm gonna miss you)
Take my hankerchief, wipe your eyes
(I'm gonna miss you)
Maybe you'll find, you'll find another guy
(I'm gonna miss you)
Let's kiss and say goodbye, pretty baby
(I'm gonna miss you)
Please, don't you cry
(I'm gonna miss you)
Understand me, won't you try
(I'm gonna miss you)
Let's just kiss
And say goodbye