mode: letih + bahagia

salam menyambut ramadhan semua muslimin dan muslimat.. yg tersayang ;)

big thanks to my beloved sis, izza izzati iffah and also my beloved dinda, surian yg ingtkn angah (yg mereka kenal sebagai irnie) bhw sedikit perhatian perlu dicurah pd babyku ini..

rasa ini sukar diungkap. boleh kuterjemah sebagai 'saling berbalas perhatian'.. sistem barter yg biasa kita amalkan menggunakan material yg tak terlihat oleh mata, hanya terkesan dihati. dan yg sangat nyata, apa saja yg kita 'barter'kan sekarang akn kekal dalam ingatan sesama kita. ia kekal. harapan menggunung agar kita dapat teruskan amalan ni. dan lebih ramai lagi turut dapat merasakan apa yg kita rasa. bahagia dgn sedikit perhatian yg tidak dipaksa.

angah penat ni. dari kul 9 td lepas makan malam angah cuba lelapkan mata. paksa diri tuk tidur seketika cuma untuk hilangkan keletihan badan dan mata. smpai sekarang kegagalan temani usaha angah. patutnya paksaan sebegini dah tak perlu. sbb hr ni lepas balik keje kul5 td (smpi umh dekat kul6 jugakla sbb trafik tak seperti yg diharapkn), angah target nk lelapkn mata smpi kedengaran azan maghrib. angah fikir mungkin da cukup tuk hilangkan sket keletihan ni.

adoiyai.. makhluk tu balik awal pulak hr ni. 1911hrs, angah dah dikejutkan ng soalan² yg agak menyakit hati. uhhh.. "ngah, nape ko balik awal hr ni?", "ngah, nape itu?" "ngah, nape ini?". uhm yg nyata soalan ni sengaja diaju untuk mengumpan amarah si angah. angah pn tanpa segan silu (agak bengang jugakla akibat dipancing dgn soalan² rutin oleh sirambut kerinting yg gaya rambut semacam nk menyerupai wolverine tu) memberi jawapan yg agak rutin jugak, "agak²nye ko ni rindu nk kene sepak (kick) kot". and lampu pn dipasang. arghhh!! "pissed-off level" meningkat mendadak. oh tidak!! kau perlu dihukum! "amik kaki aku ni, picit!" ehhe, sekurangnye letih kat bahagian kaki sedikit terawat :D sape suruh ganggu tidurku ;p

Bintang AI:

This is fine astrological weather to be you. The unpredictability you relish is everywhere. You're starting to seem almost 'normal.' Of course, once the times become so startling that you seem ordinary, it's clearly time to shake things up. So you'd better get busy. This obviously just won't do.

lima sekawan -si kecik penghibur lara


beni bunting.. yeayy! more kittens :D


melayan kebosanan di tepi longkang -saat menunggu mak di klinik..

mode: happy now

salam,

agak lame angah menyepikan diri. kerana emosi kurang stabil. terasa sangat penat membawa aura negatif dr ketakstabilan emosi yg singgah memberi pengajaran dalam hidup angah ni. seperti yg dikatakan oleh seseorg yg telah angah letakkan di kedudukan istimewa dihati, "let's just put ths small dark spot aside, and move on" (?? betul ke ayat tu??, lebih kurg la). yup, lets do that. tp kini angah belajar menggenggam semula perkara penting yg menjadi pegangan angah sebelum dia hadir. kehadiran dia mgkin membuat angah sedikit lupa akn prinsip itu.. dan mungkin juga galakan org di sekeliling yg membuatkn angah membuka peluang.. thank u all..

betul kata org, bila bahagia bersama, yg pahit boleh jadi manis. tp angah dah rase yang pahit dalam seribu kemanisan tu.. kepahitan tu takkan angah simpan lama, tp impaknye sgt besar. sangat besar. angah perlu jadi diri sendiri..

ok cukup tu...

biar angah sambung dgn isu lain pulak.

isunye kini: kuala lumpur bukan tempatku!!!

hujung minggu yg lepas, cam biase balik kg lagi. skrg tiap² minggu angh da balik kg. dulu, sll amik adik², bawak turun kl. periksa da nk dekat, it has been the time biarkn dorg stay diam² kt kg.. tenangkan fikiran. ye... tenangkan fikiran dr segala pencemaran yg melanda kuala lumpur. udara, bunyi, budaya dsb. disamping angh pun bleh tenangkn diri.

tp semalam angah ng adik² da mencemarkn sedikit udara kat kampung. terpaksa mbuat sedikit pembakaran terbuka utk 'kemaskan' sikit laman rumah. bulan pose da nk dekat. pastu raya plak. hmm klu ade makhluk² kecik tu skali mesti lg happening.. takpe next week angah culik lg dorg..

lagi happy, mase menjalani terapi (ehhe shoppin brg mkn sket) kat pasaraya SEGI, angah jmpe kwn lame.. jap angah kire da bape lame tak jmpe die.. dr umo 13 smpi 26. hah! 13 thn. uhhu jejak kasih kat pasaraya. name die salamah. anak da sorg.. uhhu.. sib baik die kenal alang. she approached alang, "ko ni adik irnie kn??" ahha tanpa menyedari yg si irnie tu tgh sibuk menguruskan kad keahlian alang kt kaunter dalam.. bestnye jmpe ko sal..

true friend... have i become one..?

a friend from WAYN mailed me ths..

Sweet words are easy to say,
Sweet things are easy to buy,
But sweet people are difficult to find..

Life ends when U stop dreaming,
Hope ends when U stop believing,
Love ends when U stop caring,
Friendship ends when U stop sharing,
So share this with whom ever you consider a friend..

To love without condition,
To talk without intention,
To give without reason,
And to care without expectation..

..is the heart of a true friend.

right before the day ends..

lastnite angah decided to fall asleep very early. oops not really early, but definitely earlier than usual. and right before the dream took control of her mind, suddenly ths question passed bye... "what if when i fall asleep now that my heart decides to stop beating?" uhm... oh no ya Allah, angah is not ready yet... if only u decide so, i will surely be in hell... nauzubillahiminzaalik... but what IF...?

may i wish to live and leave with his blessings, amiinnn... let us pray together, my love!

Lukman Al-hakim telah berpesan kpd anaknya, ada 2 perkara yg harus kita ingat dan 2 perkara yg tak harus kita ingat.

2 perkara yg TAK HARUS diingat:

1. Kebaikan yg pernah kita buat terhadap org lain.
   Kalau kita ingat, akan buatkan diri kita jd riak. Mungkin akan wujud juga sifat mengungkit dan sbgnya.
2. Keburukan yg org lain lakukan terhadap kita.
   Kalau kita ingat keburukan org, akan membuatkan kita punyai perasaan dendam dan terniat utk membalasnya semula.

2 perkara yg HARUS kita ingat:

1. Allah
2. Kebaikan yg org lakukan terhadap kita

Wallahu'alam

mode: happy

sejak seminggu yg lalu, hari angah cam tak berape nk hangatla. sbnrnye ade gak momento yg angah dok enjoy like hell tp bile nk update kt blog je, mood jadik suram. tp semalam a few of angah's fren came from out of the blue.. ehhe menceriakn hari angah gak la.. smlm kengkawan hi-school byk greet angah. just a simple one like 'hi!', 'kandaaaa! senyum la ckit.. :D' etc. then, they're gone. kejap je, tp angah sudah sgt happy. showed that angah was never forgotten tau.. masing² bz jek. ehhe. showed that at once, there was always someone, somewhere on the earth yg masih ingat that 'there's a girl named irnie/angah that i know needs to be greeted'. senang jek nk buat angah happy. just be nice to her and it doesnt cost RM at all kan?

**ehhe asik org je nk wat die happy, camne lak die nk wat orang len happy?? hmm.. penin tu, camne eh??

fishful conversation. ahha! :D

Show Recent Messages (F3)

lee suilie: acting bz??? stay always???
irniesb: stay away..
irniesb: ehhe
lee suilie: ???
irniesb: nola
irniesb: just to keep ppl away from me
lee suilie: be cherish ya
lee suilie: oh
irniesb: ahha some ppl like to disturb
irniesb: ahha
irniesb: even for small² things
lee suilie: huh?
lee suilie: like me now?
irniesb: no la
irniesb: ur always welcome
lee suilie: long time no chat w u
irniesb: yup
lee suilie: jus tanya khabar
irniesb: ehhe
irniesb: im ok as i may always be seen
irniesb: ehha
irniesb: how bout u??
lee suilie: anyways be cherish
lee suilie: aiyoo
lee suilie: hard to say
irniesb: oh thanks ineed that
lee suilie: wana die soon
irniesb: oo dont die soon
lee suilie: nyawa nyawa ikan tilapia
irniesb: hv to finish ths few series soon
irniesb: ahha
irniesb: then we can die together
lee suilie: few????????????///
irniesb: ahahha
lee suilie: hahha
lee suilie: u wan be ikan kering or keropoa?
irniesb: rather be ikan busuk
lee suilie: har?
lee suilie: busuk le
irniesb: die floating at sea
irniesb: ahaha
lee suilie: dont wan la
irniesb: ehhhe
lee suilie: never
irniesb: me die alone la
lee suilie: we can think a way put in air conditioner environment
irniesb: wahahah
lee suilie: where got?
irniesb: pasar borong
irniesb: ehhehe
irniesb: then sell to ppl
lee suilie: u see still got many pretty fish swim to ur place
irniesb: who is interested
irniesb: ahahha
lee suilie: give u support
lee suilie: encouragement
irniesb: ehhe thanks
lee suilie: as long as we sell mahal la
irniesb: thank u dear
irniesb: ahahah
lee suilie: so anything
lee suilie: remeber still got many expensive fishes suooprt u ooo
lee suilie: support
irniesb: yeah
lee suilie: gambateh
irniesb: i will appreciate that
irniesb: gambateh!!
irniesb: same to u..
lee suilie: gambateh
lee suilie: bye bye
irniesb: bye
lee suilie: wana go search a good place to dry up the ikan kering
irniesb: ahahahh
irniesb: then gd luck for u
irniesb: dry it well
irniesb: so it will tahan longer

**thank you, dear ;) LIFE is beautiful, don't u think??